End of a decade.

2010 is upon us this week. We have already gone through 10 years this century. Things have changed drastically. I got married and became a mother. I never thought I would have been married and a mom before I was 25. Not my original goal in life. Not that I had much of a goal anyway, but it wasn't that. As much as I struggle with that, I have a harder time struggling with the realization that I may not have any more children. I love the princess dearly, but I would love to give her a brother or a sister. And at the age of 25, I cannot carry another child to term. Its heartwrenching. I have tested positive three times this last year, only to lose that child within 3 weeks. There may have been more, I just know of three for sure. Im not looking for sympathy, just a place to lay it all out, and grieve. It helps to see it out in writing. So Happy New Year, belated Merry Christmas. May the next 10 years be amazing!